Gray day...

I have finally figured out that winter depresses me, or at least the end.  I hate the gray!!  Like today, it just hangs everywhere and seems to come inside me and zap any joy out of me.  And then I'm filled with sad thoughts, thoughts I know I've turned over to God but I bring up to the surface every now and again to hurt myself with.  I have no desire to do anything and even less desire to seek God's company!!  And so, as the gray days continue I end up in 'the pit'.  This year, I've caught myself doing it, or God brought it to my attention, and instead of falling all the way to the bottom I feel like I've caught a branch on the side and am holding on to that.  Instead of hitting rock bottom and becoming bitter and angry and sullen and depressed, I am reaching out to friends to pray for me.  I'm forcing myself to do a Bible study even though I don't want to.  Everytime a terrible thought or an inappropriate daydream comes into my mind I grab it captive and give it back to God.  I feel like I'm fighting an unseen war!!  And the gray is fighting against me. 
But then I see sunshine and I turn my face towards it and soak it in.  I feel warth and picture Jesus wrapping His arms around me.  I see His promises in His word that I'm begrudingly reading and each promise is a foot hold out of the pit!!  "He has a plan for me" "He loves me so much He sent His son" "He is everlasting" "He keeps His promises" "He is in all and above all".  Maybe now that I'm aware of satan's schemes when the gray days come next year I'll be on the defense when it comes and I'll be able to fight it off instead of having to fight my way out...
Dennis said that on Monday of Holy week, Jesus went into the temple and cleared out the things that were unholy, that were taking advantage of the people trying to bring true worship to Him.  Will you join me in asking Jesus into the temple of OUR hearts and ask HIm to clear the things block us from bringing HIm true worship?  For me it's my desire for more and my negative thoughts towards myself.  I pray now that Christ will strip that from me!!